"Shut up," John says, quickly, doesn't realise that the word choice is rather poor until it's already out, and he immediately raises a hand and shakes his head, frowning at. Something. Something above Sherlock's shoulder. "I mean-- Sorry, just... be quiet for a second."
His head's spinning enough without Sherlock adding to it and talking about shoulds and trying to reassure him and. Whatever the hell else all that is. Something nonsensical that feels completely pointless in the situation, because it's just talking, words, and if it isn't that then it's something ridiculous because John doesn't think Sherlock would hurt him, could never begin to think it. Maybe he should be suspicious too, to add to the list of all the things he should. But Sherlock hasn't given him a reason for it. All things considered, Sherlock never seems to actually initiate anything.
Which is a great big reason to like him.
John has a lot of reasons to like Sherlock, but this is something he has no idea where to place it. He's got a mental list to fill in with both favourable and less so - or not at all - traits of Sherlock and he has no idea where to put this one. Which probably tells a great deal about him. Whatever that might be.
He looks at Sherlock some more. Tries searching his eyes even if he doesn't know what it is he's looking for. He's just pretty sure there's got to be something.
Time passes, but it's useless to think about how much it might be. It feels like he's looking at Sherlock for all too long and yet not long enough at all. But at least he has enough of an idea to think that he should probably say something soon, except he has no idea what that would be. Something better than "oh" and "shut up", most definitely, but that doesn't exactly help.
"I probably should be running," he manages, echos Sherlock's words, echos his thoughts, and it still leaves him none the wiser.
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His head's spinning enough without Sherlock adding to it and talking about shoulds and trying to reassure him and. Whatever the hell else all that is. Something nonsensical that feels completely pointless in the situation, because it's just talking, words, and if it isn't that then it's something ridiculous because John doesn't think Sherlock would hurt him, could never begin to think it. Maybe he should be suspicious too, to add to the list of all the things he should. But Sherlock hasn't given him a reason for it. All things considered, Sherlock never seems to actually initiate anything.
Which is a great big reason to like him.
John has a lot of reasons to like Sherlock, but this is something he has no idea where to place it. He's got a mental list to fill in with both favourable and less so - or not at all - traits of Sherlock and he has no idea where to put this one. Which probably tells a great deal about him. Whatever that might be.
He looks at Sherlock some more. Tries searching his eyes even if he doesn't know what it is he's looking for. He's just pretty sure there's got to be something.
Time passes, but it's useless to think about how much it might be. It feels like he's looking at Sherlock for all too long and yet not long enough at all. But at least he has enough of an idea to think that he should probably say something soon, except he has no idea what that would be. Something better than "oh" and "shut up", most definitely, but that doesn't exactly help.
"I probably should be running," he manages, echos Sherlock's words, echos his thoughts, and it still leaves him none the wiser.
And he's still not running.